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.:preceptorship:.

So i havent started and I've missed 2 days already because my nurse is sick. I just hope that she will be nice to me.. I look forward to tomorrow.

Amy Winehouse - Stronger Than Me

.:June 26 2011:.

Dad,
It has been 2 years that you’ve been living up there in heaven. I really wonder how and what it’s like to be there. I’m sure everything is perfect. Dad, I have come across accomplishments, struggles, pain and pretty much have been facing the life of an adult young woman. Boy, I tell you, it’s a roller coaster ride. It has been a bitter sweet feeling, but I can’t get away from it. I just have to face it, live it and love it. I hope that I have made you proud with what I have become and accomplished in the last two years. It has been a rough road out there for me. However, I manage to take control of the gear and make sure that I’m still on track. I have not been the perfect daughter, sister, and a friend but I know I have been the person that I ought to be.
By the way thank you for saying Hi to me when I was dreaming and having a nap the other day. That was such a comedic move. =D. It gave me a good feeling when I woke up because you know I miss you. I like to see your smile in my dreams.
I also wanted to let you know, I’m a step closer to my dream but I still hope that I was able to have more knowledge and knew more about what was really going on with your body now that I have the understanding of what happened to you. Daddy, please continue to watch over us. Mommy misses you a lot, Kaye, Chellsa and Emmy and ofcourse me, your panganay.
Lastly, I will do my very best to do all I can in making our lives to have a more comfortable and meaningful relationship with each other. I cannot promise to be the best but I will do my very best with all of my strength and all that I have.
I miss you dad. I love you so much!
p.s I’m really praying for a lifetime partner, could you help me out please?

Love always
Xoxo
Panganay

【AREIA REMIX 060】Sistar19 (씨스타19) - Ma Boy (마 보이)

.:healing:.

I thought maybe this wonderful sunshine would push me in writing in my blog. It has been more than a month. I have come to realize that being in love can somehow subside like a sinking boat...however if it the holes in the boat was fixed as soon as possible by those people in the boat there's a chance for love to keep going stronger and continue how much longer the journey will last. I say healing because, its still the present. I have been hurt and still hurt. So in the process of feeling hurt, I know somehow I'm healing.
I'm writing this because I feel like I want to attain something that I cannot have or I feel that I cannot be alone to get there. How I just wish you were here beside me to actually hear for the very first time of how I am really feeling and now that I have matured, I have come to understand why it's so hard to be in my position.

I just pray for that right person who will bring me to you or just strengthen my relationship with you and have you in between of however life, love, weaknesses, strengths, failures, successes, sadness, laughter and many more that I may face...

through it all I confess that I am weak, I am a sinner, I am a follower, I am your only daughter...

I AM HURT

KC Concepcion-Tayo Na with Lyrics

.:end of the road:.

Another chapter of my life just about ended. A new door opened for new opportunities. My practical nursing program is about to start and gave me the opportunity to finish the rest of the class I need to re-take. I'm looking forward to finish the rest of my program. I'm determined and driven to do this for myself. I just have to think of me now. What I need to focus on is to accomplish my goals. Everything else will come into place.

I found it Classico-0356. My license. My BSN. My HSH. My career. My eternity.

Lord thank you for being by my side...At All TIMES!!

.:Greetings:.

Hi so how was your day today? It was alright day, thank you. I think I had a productive day. I woke up at 0530 to get ready for work, worked my ass off to earn some bread for myself and somehow get what I want right? Busy day at work today, I was actually doing MY JOB! I had English class today, talked about Not Wanted on a Voyage and I was very keen on the participation and took notes to help me out for my final exam. Then I took the sky train to New West got me some MAD ILL sashimi, pink roll and all that good stuff..Work my ass off in the gym and for your information made me FEEL SO GOOD! then to treat myself I had my Japanese dinner! YUM! Oh and I have a Job interview at the head office at my work as a receptionist. I'll give the interview a shot but if I get the position I might not be going to school =(. Decisions Decisions Decisions..but then again that's what's really good..Goodnight.

.:Blind:.

Help me...I can't see through you...

maybe I'm just permanently blinded by the surroundings and unable to see what is around me anymore.

I cannot see through this spectrum...

.:Failure:.

That is all what has come after the equation it equals to failure..

I wonder when success will be added to it...

.:Love letters:.

I was watching the movie Sex and the City I earlier today...I realized that I would like to receive loves letters once in a while..I would make sure to keep it in a safe place and keep reading it over and over again until I'm not able to read anymore...

.:The nerve:.

i'm loosing my patience on you!

.:Super Moon:.

Ok it has been quite a while since my last entry. It has been all songs lately so, I think its about time to just think out loud and speak my mind.

I have been feeling stressed and down lately. Doing a lot of self seeking, soul searching and trying to figure out MYself. I had to start thinking of my own personal goals and what I really want in the next 3-5 years of my life to be accomplished or somewhat to have accomplished.

I know for a fact that I have so much in my plate and its literally overflowing because it doesn't fit anymore. I am still indecisive of what would be my next step if I don't get a seat for April. I'm still not sure if nursing is still a way to go. On the other hand, I can't even see myself do other things but care for people. Maybe something related to health care but not nursing? what do you think? I have not accomplished anything since you passed away. I just become aware of that recently. Honestly, I do miss you very much. Because I have no dad to ask for advice if I have boy problems. I know I have not opened up to you before, but my reasons were because you were struggling with your illness already. I didn't want to add anymore stress on you. I can only talk to the air around me and pray really hard to get a sign or an answer. Don't get me wrong, I'm happy when I do get to see you in my dreams once in a while. I just want to hear you once again and just hear your dad advice. aahhh why am I teary eyed again. I just miss you so much that I wish that you can witness all of us mature and one day to walk me down the isle. Unfortunately, that is not possible. It will not be the same feeling when MY OWN DAD will pass me to my future husband, whom I will love unconditionally, submit myself with all my heart, support, and understanding no matter what may have come between us.

I wish for you to talk to me in my dreams and have a really long conversation and word of your advice on what you think I should do, and I will just decide later on, on how I will lead my life and make the choice for myself, for my future and my future family...

I miss you! >.< =*(

Murs-The Break Up

Aaliyah- Come Over

.:A Street Car Named Desire:.

I'm in this empty classroom stuck with my paper (20%) of my final mark. So far I'm on my 3rd paragraph out of the 5 I have to write. Why can't I just say my paper out loud. I don't do well with this writing and analyzing. Can I just talk about the play itself and tell you how I understood it? I mean the moral of the story would be just fine to explain and participation marks I hope count more. I'm keen like that. This paper doesn't end here, I have another presentation I have to do for feminism and apply and present how it correlates with Jersey Shore (females) which is a 10% mark.

I've been so confused lately, I feel like I'm not going any further with this career thing. My life is put on a stop and don't know where to put myself in. I've been on this long escalator ride and suddenly it just stopped somewhere in the middle. Do I need a change of careers for me to be happy with my life and be passionate with what I do? But the thing is I can only see myself to be a nurse or someone that works and take care of people. I don't want to be stuck with this care aid job. I feel that I can offer more and I want to learn more. With this English crap is making give up, but it's the last course I need to take to get in the BSN program. What am I thinking? I'm just so overwhelmed with this paper and I'm trying my very best to get at least a C+ or higher because that's all I need to move forward for my Nursing. I don't think I have any problems with Nursing courses once I get there. I mean I've done it before and why can't I do it again?

My time is ticking. I have so much goals I want to accomplish before I'm 30. Right now is just becoming to slow and I feel like I'm running out of time like a ticking time bomb. If this doesn't pull through where do I go? what do I do? start again? aiya...life can be very hard..but here you are with my arms wide open not knowing how to deal with it. As much as I want to embrace it, it's still hard...

God help me...

Runaway - Bruno Mars lyrics

.:Best dream i've ever had:.

I was dreaming the whole time holding this baby boy on a rocking chair. The baby was so handsome. Too bad I'm not sure if the baby was mine or someone else. The whole time I was just holding the baby. The best part too was my dad was there, happy and strong. I wish parts of my dream will be true someday with a baby boy, but unfortunately my dad won't be able to be there...

Lloyd want you feat lil wayne

.:Sun kissed:.

Paano Na Kaya - Bugoy (with lyrics)

Muli By Bugoy Drilon (with lyrics)

.:Honey Bunch:.

You're my Honey Bunch......the apple of my EYE!
http://www.castlemountains.com/postcards/eunifun/honeybunch.shtml

hold on-side A

Beyoncé - Sweet Dreams

Musiq - Dontchange

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.:Am I lacking?:.

hold on i need to get this out of my chest! FUCK YOU! I believe I have done so much and sacrificed so much of my life to fight for you. I'm just trying to hold on and keeping it positive that everything will work out fine! Screw the "team" together..it doesn't even exist in your vocabulary. Fuck your money is mine and blah blah blah..get real! I feel that you're not ready for this commitment because everything that comes out of my mouth is all nag to you. My point will never be heard because of your mind boggling EGO! is all up your ass and does not care about what others may try to say. It goes to one ear and out the other. Your bull shit don't make me feel any better anymore. Because it's just someone playing a role. Best Actor I may say. I do things genuinely, honestly, and full of sincerity..but how do you return it back? its more of an obligation to you, a task, or a job...My patience is running, running, running low..Soon enough I'm gone! Never ending fights/arguments. There was never a month that there was not a fight/argument. I know its not always me. Sometimes it's also you, I can see in your face when you lie, I don't have to tell you. I just leave it up to your conscience...Maybe 5 years is the time to say times up or game over!

.:to look forward:.

Look forward to see friends. Look forward to a hobby. Look forward to something new. Look forward to change. Look forward to being alone. Look forward to going out. Look forward to vacation. Look forward to talking to friends whether a guy or girl. Looking forward to going home. What is more important?

.:Hour glass:.

Time is ticking. Could it mean it's running out? I may be able to feel better. Like this. Find me again. Happier alone. Always taking advantage. Greedy. Support but is it fake? Tired. Give up. Not worth it. Someone better for you. Rich enough. Prettier. Sexier. Smarter. Street Smart. Wears more make-up. Funnier. Careless. Dirty. Lazy. Unmotivated. Inconsiderate. Putting you down. Discouraged. Feeling stupid. Uneducated. Know Everything. Mistakes. Misunderstanding. Misunderstood. Doesn't listen. Stubborn. Arrogant. White lies. Hatred. Jealousy.

Regine Velasquez: Araw Gabi

Regine Velasquez - Messin' with my head

.:It's been a while so it's the right time when I'm 26:.

So I had missed writing on this blog during the holidays specifically Christmas and New years. The sad part it's our second Christmas without Daddy, I miss him dearly. =S On a happy note I was able to spend it with Love despite my busy schedule at work and he was on a 3 week vacation. Also I enjoyed spending Christmas dinner with my family and Lovey's family. I ended up having the bronchitis though, which was a first for me. I just had to be on antibiotics for a week or so. Lovey and I, and Lovely and Brian went to the Festival of lights in Vandusen Gardens which was fun too! I'm glad to have met new group of friends that I trust! I also enjoyed going to the states with the family just before we started school.

This month had passed Lovey and I turned to our 5 year anniversary of being together! I'm so happy be spending the holidays with my only Love.

Not let's turn to my birthday! It started off last night, Lovey surprised me with an ice cream cake from DQ. It's just too bad it was not caught on camera because I sure had a very surprised reaction, went out of balance and almost fell. It was nice though because he went out of his way to buy me a cake and usually its hard to surprise me. So yeah, it was so sweet of him to do that for me. It's very seldom that he's able to do this to me..I usually give him more surprises, not that I'm counting or comparing. Then this morning started off alright. Lovey had a CT scan though =S. I'm a little anxious with what the result may be. It turned out to be a nice day but very cold. I cooked shrimp alfredo and bought nando's for my family, Lovey, Domer and James. Too bad Chellsa was not able to make it. Lovey came around 5:30 then Domer an hour after then James. Domer got me Donuts from Tim Horton's and James got me 2 boxes of Cheesecake =D. Then we watched a little bit of Russell Peters..something that made me laugh; finally. Lovey was a little off today so I had to find something that would make myself be happy about. It was nice for him to be over but the presence was not there. Not sure really why because we barely talked. =S. Oh yeah before I forget I got my hair done up for my birthday. My present for myself..but now in search for a job. Need to help my mama.

Lord thank you for another year. I am looking forward to what you have planned for me this year. I will do my best to obey you and follow the desires of my heart. One of my sister's in Christ shared with me today Romans 15:13 "May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit."

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