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Are we still In Love? I have been feeling lonely lately. Is this suppose to be a job as a girlfriend or is it something that I'm suppose to just have my open arms and embrace it. Is this another sign of us growing apart from each other? One reason that I could think of right now is finding a new place moving in it and wanting to live with others. I was looking forward to finish because I wanted to help but I think once the move happens I will have a better idea where I am in the relationship. It sucks to feel that I still don't know where to stand since we decided to make this work once again. I feel like I haven't done enough or have not met your expectations. I have been trying to balance everything that is happening in my life right now. Is my time for you not enough? I find that I am comforting myself already and not seeking for yours or wait a minute, whenever I seek for you, it's always the wrong timing. Maybe I need to be independent once again or someone needs to hit me with a hammer saying wake up, that's all you have with him. It's really harsh to think this way but I don't know the reason why it's giving me these thoughts. Am I not doing or fulfilling my duties as a partner? or as an individual? I have nothing else to offer. I don't have my education it's put on a hold AGAIN, a job that is not permanent, and a future that is on hold..Is there any room left to LOVE?