.:Long Nap:.

I apologize that it has been almost a week that I have not been giving my POV and thoughts. I have been quite stressed lately especially with my exams and weight gain. I have been looking at the mirror and I don't like what I see. =S it is unfortunate but somehow I just don't have the urge to be around people anymore. I always have a problem with what to wear because I'm getting very conscious with my body and afraid to be picked on because I know how it would affect my self - esteem.

So I'll just do a quick re-cap of my week. Last week I started off by cramming for my Healing exam which I wrote last Thursday >.<. It was a bit hard but I will find out on Monday the results of my exam and will know if I have to re-take Healing class. I was able to help my mom out on Friday while she had her bible study group here at home, I was able to look after the little kids. It was also Lovey's first day @ Bench, and he was exhausted that day working for more than 16hours. =S. He said he enjoyed his first day and made new friends. Then Saturday, was a long day for me. I started off by waking up early because of the neighbour, not sure what they were doing but I heard banging sounds, then headed to work @ Cheyenne for four hours which ended up a bit tiring oh and It snowed! Then I went home took a nap, headed to Danika's 7th birthday party in Burnaby and then to Jubail's baby shower. I did not get home until about 1am. =S It was worth it because I was able to spent half of my day with my only Love and the one who will loved me unconditionally. Then today's day was great, I was able to watch my love's game with our good friend Marivic, Marvin and baby Sarah =D. They were cheering for Alvin and I was gladly honored to be taking care of Sarah as they enjoy the game =D. We also had our dinner @ Pin Pin because it's they're last week here already. I didn't get to say goodbye. Now this week, is just about to begin my stress level is not getting any better. I have 2 more exams coming up and that is my not the end of it because I still have to do good in them because I have no more supplemental exams left. >.< I'm starting to feel the stress in my body, my upper back and left shoulder has been bothering me, my left hip feels like it is getting dislocated when I do a certain movement. I just look forward for this holidays to relax and prepare myself hopefully for the Practicum and Preceptorship. I also want to make a special mention for tito Leo and Tita Chona praying for me today.

Lord, I just lift up to you my heart as it is very fragile at the moment and my emotions that are very low and down. I am already feeling like I do not deserve to be around people who cares for me. I know I am not suppose to feel this way, please guide me and show me the light to walk towards to the right path. I feel like I'm alone and have no more chance to feel happy about myself.