.:Super Moon:.

Ok it has been quite a while since my last entry. It has been all songs lately so, I think its about time to just think out loud and speak my mind.

I have been feeling stressed and down lately. Doing a lot of self seeking, soul searching and trying to figure out MYself. I had to start thinking of my own personal goals and what I really want in the next 3-5 years of my life to be accomplished or somewhat to have accomplished.

I know for a fact that I have so much in my plate and its literally overflowing because it doesn't fit anymore. I am still indecisive of what would be my next step if I don't get a seat for April. I'm still not sure if nursing is still a way to go. On the other hand, I can't even see myself do other things but care for people. Maybe something related to health care but not nursing? what do you think? I have not accomplished anything since you passed away. I just become aware of that recently. Honestly, I do miss you very much. Because I have no dad to ask for advice if I have boy problems. I know I have not opened up to you before, but my reasons were because you were struggling with your illness already. I didn't want to add anymore stress on you. I can only talk to the air around me and pray really hard to get a sign or an answer. Don't get me wrong, I'm happy when I do get to see you in my dreams once in a while. I just want to hear you once again and just hear your dad advice. aahhh why am I teary eyed again. I just miss you so much that I wish that you can witness all of us mature and one day to walk me down the isle. Unfortunately, that is not possible. It will not be the same feeling when MY OWN DAD will pass me to my future husband, whom I will love unconditionally, submit myself with all my heart, support, and understanding no matter what may have come between us.

I wish for you to talk to me in my dreams and have a really long conversation and word of your advice on what you think I should do, and I will just decide later on, on how I will lead my life and make the choice for myself, for my future and my future family...

I miss you! >.< =*(