I'm in this empty classroom stuck with my paper (20%) of my final mark. So far I'm on my 3rd paragraph out of the 5 I have to write. Why can't I just say my paper out loud. I don't do well with this writing and analyzing. Can I just talk about the play itself and tell you how I understood it? I mean the moral of the story would be just fine to explain and participation marks I hope count more. I'm keen like that. This paper doesn't end here, I have another presentation I have to do for feminism and apply and present how it correlates with Jersey Shore (females) which is a 10% mark.
I've been so confused lately, I feel like I'm not going any further with this career thing. My life is put on a stop and don't know where to put myself in. I've been on this long escalator ride and suddenly it just stopped somewhere in the middle. Do I need a change of careers for me to be happy with my life and be passionate with what I do? But the thing is I can only see myself to be a nurse or someone that works and take care of people. I don't want to be stuck with this care aid job. I feel that I can offer more and I want to learn more. With this English crap is making give up, but it's the last course I need to take to get in the BSN program. What am I thinking? I'm just so overwhelmed with this paper and I'm trying my very best to get at least a C+ or higher because that's all I need to move forward for my Nursing. I don't think I have any problems with Nursing courses once I get there. I mean I've done it before and why can't I do it again?
My time is ticking. I have so much goals I want to accomplish before I'm 30. Right now is just becoming to slow and I feel like I'm running out of time like a ticking time bomb. If this doesn't pull through where do I go? what do I do? start again? aiya...life can be very hard..but here you are with my arms wide open not knowing how to deal with it. As much as I want to embrace it, it's still hard...
God help me...
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