I woke up pretty early for a no school day. I had to run to Canadian tire and the post office for my mom and to North Vancouver for her naturopath. I actually got my first IM injection experience it was so scary especially giving it on a family member. After that, I went to new west to pick up Love and drive me to my hair appointment. I have blonde streaks and short bob cut hair.
Then suddenly after my hair appointment AL mood changes to someone that is very short tempered (nothing new) after finding out that one of his favourite friend is not going he decided not to go to our friends dinner anymore after I said that he decided to go. I mean who would not feel bad maybe he wouldn't but if he didn't want to go at all maybe he should speak up about it. I would have probably understood before not after when we're on our way home giving me the silent treatment and making me feel I have done something wrong. If you're tired tell me not after going to the dinner.
At times I feel like I have had it. I always have to make everything work an be the man. Who is the guy in the relationship? Not me! why do you give me reasons to think that this is not working anymore? Why do I always have to feel that getting married is not an option? Why do I feel that this is just still a short term relationship? Is it time for me to realize that there's nothing to look forward about US anymore? I don't want to waste each others time. If
I'm the only one that tries to make it work? I'm sorry but I can't work alone in a
relationship. When can my feelings matter? I have a heart too and I get hurt. If I am tired,
I say I'm tired. I know when to stand my ground how about you?
my mind is speaking out loud
but Lord I thank you for this problem and it just makes me look forward to one day closer
until I see You and My Daddy!
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