.:rainbow:.

So I was trying to go to sleep but my eyes are wide open and my mind is not shutting down. Tears started falling down my face and what kept bothering me is I am always finding reasons of why I don't feel loved at all. I thought sleepingover would help it but the feeling is worst? Isn't it suppose to be better? Why do I have reasons to think that there has been someone or somethig else that has replaced me. I don't know where I stand anymore. I don't even know who to ask? I feel alone and just like a shadow that only appears when needed or when the sun is up. I feel bot needed and no purpose to be here beside anyone, even you. It seems to me that it's game over or the time is up. Is te feeling of being miserable a sign? Feeling of empitiness? Feeling of doubt? Feeling of no patience? Feeling of givig up? Feeling useless? Feeling just like a toy, that I inly get attention if you need something to play with?

I thought I'm suppose to feel like special? I don't. I thought I'm suppose to be treated like a princess or a queen? But I don't. I thought I'm suppose to be boasted by your world and be proud that I am here and part of you but I don't. I might probably be dreaming and I just woke up from a nightmare. Is this the truth? Am I actually facing the truth? Is it time for me to wake up and stand up to tell and slap myself get real? I honselty do not know what I'm suppose
to do. I'm confused and lost. Because I feel that I've lost you already. Can you just tell me?

Wherever you are - south border