.:end of the road:.

Another chapter of my life just about ended. A new door opened for new opportunities. My practical nursing program is about to start and gave me the opportunity to finish the rest of the class I need to re-take. I'm looking forward to finish the rest of my program. I'm determined and driven to do this for myself. I just have to think of me now. What I need to focus on is to accomplish my goals. Everything else will come into place.

I found it Classico-0356. My license. My BSN. My HSH. My career. My eternity.

Lord thank you for being by my side...At All TIMES!!

.:Greetings:.

Hi so how was your day today? It was alright day, thank you. I think I had a productive day. I woke up at 0530 to get ready for work, worked my ass off to earn some bread for myself and somehow get what I want right? Busy day at work today, I was actually doing MY JOB! I had English class today, talked about Not Wanted on a Voyage and I was very keen on the participation and took notes to help me out for my final exam. Then I took the sky train to New West got me some MAD ILL sashimi, pink roll and all that good stuff..Work my ass off in the gym and for your information made me FEEL SO GOOD! then to treat myself I had my Japanese dinner! YUM! Oh and I have a Job interview at the head office at my work as a receptionist. I'll give the interview a shot but if I get the position I might not be going to school =(. Decisions Decisions Decisions..but then again that's what's really good..Goodnight.

.:Blind:.

Help me...I can't see through you...

maybe I'm just permanently blinded by the surroundings and unable to see what is around me anymore.

I cannot see through this spectrum...

.:Failure:.

That is all what has come after the equation it equals to failure..

I wonder when success will be added to it...

.:Love letters:.

I was watching the movie Sex and the City I earlier today...I realized that I would like to receive loves letters once in a while..I would make sure to keep it in a safe place and keep reading it over and over again until I'm not able to read anymore...

.:The nerve:.

i'm loosing my patience on you!

.:Super Moon:.

Ok it has been quite a while since my last entry. It has been all songs lately so, I think its about time to just think out loud and speak my mind.

I have been feeling stressed and down lately. Doing a lot of self seeking, soul searching and trying to figure out MYself. I had to start thinking of my own personal goals and what I really want in the next 3-5 years of my life to be accomplished or somewhat to have accomplished.

I know for a fact that I have so much in my plate and its literally overflowing because it doesn't fit anymore. I am still indecisive of what would be my next step if I don't get a seat for April. I'm still not sure if nursing is still a way to go. On the other hand, I can't even see myself do other things but care for people. Maybe something related to health care but not nursing? what do you think? I have not accomplished anything since you passed away. I just become aware of that recently. Honestly, I do miss you very much. Because I have no dad to ask for advice if I have boy problems. I know I have not opened up to you before, but my reasons were because you were struggling with your illness already. I didn't want to add anymore stress on you. I can only talk to the air around me and pray really hard to get a sign or an answer. Don't get me wrong, I'm happy when I do get to see you in my dreams once in a while. I just want to hear you once again and just hear your dad advice. aahhh why am I teary eyed again. I just miss you so much that I wish that you can witness all of us mature and one day to walk me down the isle. Unfortunately, that is not possible. It will not be the same feeling when MY OWN DAD will pass me to my future husband, whom I will love unconditionally, submit myself with all my heart, support, and understanding no matter what may have come between us.

I wish for you to talk to me in my dreams and have a really long conversation and word of your advice on what you think I should do, and I will just decide later on, on how I will lead my life and make the choice for myself, for my future and my future family...

I miss you! >.< =*(