.:beginning of a long journey:.

Wednesday, July 4, 2012

.:born to love:.

Have been a hand full from the very beginning. All I did was give all the love. I gave my heart and soul. I guess I never knew how to read the love one gives me. I forgot because I realized i haven't loved myself enough.

One morning I would just want to wake up and start all over again. I have not been the perfect woman, gf, daugther, and friend but this time but I can say that I will do my best to be able to have understanding, patience, respect and the unconditional love one deserves. I may not have had a perfect or a happy relationship in the past but lets not think of the negativity but the happiness that has happened in our lives for our future relationship to work.

I was born to love...

Thursday, June 28, 2012

.:walk in clinic:.

I woke up today feeling worthless, lonely and wanting to end everything. Tears just started falling from my eyes not having any emotions but sadness. I did not care about anything. I read my daily devotion i could not meditate. I still feel worthless. Is it the depression kicking in again? I cried out to God to help me and take this pain away. Derek keeping me company so I dont do anything stupid. Sitting at the walk in clinic waiting to see a doctor. Texted my sister chellsa and kaye also my ate prezel, ate pearl and ate ragelle with my thoughts and feelings. I just want to take a breather reset my mind body and soul... I need to be cleansed from this negativity. Heal my heart from a heart break and renew for a better and healthier life with God in my heart.

Alannah keep positive and let Go and Let God!

Psalm 27:14 "wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart, wait for the Lord."